2004

Oct
11
2004

satisfaction

.satisfaction
is such a loaded word

guilt smothered thick
like a syrup
coating all sides
of potential slumber

a secret world
denied for survival,
and all i can do is wonder
and wonder

sick,ill,fantasy.
 
Jul
09
2004

like syrup

.My pain oozes

like syrup, slow on the drip

sticks to my insides and starts to rip

apart my nausea

wrecks the party

of one i'll not neglect you again

and i promise i'll be better

next time

won't forget.
   
Jul
09
2004

pink fodder

.Rage is such a

pretty word

wrapped nicely with a pink bow

i'd like to serve it at my next

dinner party with dozens of guests

turned bystanders

in this cold intervention

of hating myself

and realizing it's the peoples

surrounding my dilemmas

and nodding as if they understand.

yes.pretty pink bows.is whats next.
   
May
27
2004

touched3

.touch me

ever so slightly

devour me

hard core now

try me

and you'll lose it all.
   
May
27
2004

.ground.

.ground.

.Pride is the virus

of aging men -

we'll plaster and die

in vain to spin cargos and amass

so-called fortunes

guaranteeing our spot

in the ground.
   
Feb
01
2004

Help

Created crafty poetry

to defile coded misery

and get outside the box: read head

Screams of anguish plentiful

and scars removed from bed

.Help.
   

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