come around

it had been so long since you'd last come around
that i thought maybe you'd left indefinitely

felt weak that your sneak
could consume and cause so much
uncertainty, such a crippling
overwhelm of ambivalence

yeah, i know,
it's what you're known for

i suspend my belief
temporarily betraying what i struggle to know
no, this is not the way it's going to be

one day i'll beat you
i'll triumph and succeed

one day i'll not be you
i'll have served my time for the deed

this kosmic retribution
this kosmic uncertain.ty

you were loved; even then

you were loved; even when you
you tried to take me down

.i.cant.breath.i.cant.sleep.when.you're.around.my.neck.