embrace it

sleepless i debate the merits
of what a return would could and should
be, how it'd go and who would know
the course(s) we both traveled
two sides to story, back and forth
this passage, you led astray
will pave the way for
apology for an ever-after;
what's left undistinguished is
a sense of remorse
for the course was took
without a look
for the trust, that would
be diminished,
and in this political web, there
are calculations to be made assessed
addressed and turns to be taken

and i question baby
if you have the stomach
to see this one through
if you knew it wouldn't
always been fun and bubbly plastered,
i've developed some habits
i've developed some ticks

we'll see if you can embrace this
little monster
you created