my underneath

sunk,
i am lonely.
drowning and treading
all on my own,
i cannot do this without you
and yet
i'm feeling
it's not with you too
disheartened i cling to hold
on
to something
broken, beaten, i explode
my acid leaking on you
vicious it starts to tear
away your (my) skin

we.are.breaking.

i tend to do this
you've lasted longer than i could
have possibly imagined
an expiration date i foresaw
very wrongly
i cringe at the way i've managed
my.self in relationship toward you

i am wrong
and lonely....

(k)no(w) where to(you) begin
i am bleeding
inside i am cold
and alone
bruising i am strong
and building muscle
i am pretending
to be awake
and numbing....to get through this.

and i am dramatic
i am bold
vicious, hatefully cold

we will mend and absolve our trials
denials work themselves out through the
trying tour of this jaded
album

covers emerge with disparity
and i will sing these tracks to death
(as if I haven't already you will say
in your oh-so-lovingly great way)

I bow before you...
my underneath.....