train the world

I am wanting to escape from me
To arrive from this burdened space
See clean clear calm
But the world is not
Dank dark dirty
Purity is a minority,
Imperfect I try
Writing an armored high
I engage imbibe and hide
From the blade of what's around
This corner
Fear fate floundeR
Oh this pain licks drips
And seeps across my page
Worn tired text I have become
Angsty teenager rebellion
Was cute in its first year,
Well practiced now inaccurate
Doesn't quite capture
The voice of my havoc
Numb I've become an engine
That won't shut off
Sickened by my fumes my
Allies flee, toxic I am
Flee me
Be me
See me not
You will regret your attempt
Better off leaving quickly with less
Attachment and investment
Nothing keeping you here
Least is me in my current condition of an
Anchor around your neck weighing
Upon your dazzle dazzle social life
You write wickedly
Whining of what it would be like
And ask demand order I obey the command to
Be do all aligned
Medicine you won't swallow
I'm tired of taking drs orders
That aren't followed by givers' own internal
Logic structure you are anti
Everything and fraud
Eat lies
You choke
Just get sick and let it all come up baby
You've swallowed your bullshit for too long
And now you suffer the consequences
Of your own cosmic dissonances
The dance you've trained
The world